Out of My Mind

I have a day off!  I just got done working 8 days in a row and it really, really sucked.  But I did make it through my first full weekend there.  And I hope I never have to work 8 days in a row again!  I haven’t heard from anybody that I have messed anything up too terribly, so I must be doing okay.  I did have a dream (or maybe a nightmare) the other night that they were already asking me to be a head cashier, which is kinda funny.  I’m still not loving it there and really hope that the hubby gets offered a fabulous job that would let me stay home again.  Not very likely, but I can still dream.

The hubby finally heard back about the HR position.  He didn’t get it.   He did have an interview with Dunham’s on Friday and is on his way to an interview with the Great Outdoors right now.  And he’s had a couple of calls from Comerica already this morning.  Hopefully something pans out or we are so unbelievably screwed. 

Sebastian seems to be having a bit of a hard time adjusting to everything that is going on.  He is having a hard time at night and has been ending up sleeping in our bed a lot more.  I told the hubby that he is creating a monster by doing this.  I mean, we started letting him sleep with us when he was about 8 months old and didn’t get him out of our bed until he was almost 3!  I feel bad though.  He’s had his momma home with him for most of his life.  It’s a huge change for him.  And as we’ve seen from the problems he had adjusting to the move and new school, he obviously doesn’t deal well with change.  Thankfully, he’s only got about 2.5 weeks left of school, then he’ll be able to see more of me.

I talked to my mom today.  SHe wanted to let me know that she had gotten the Mother’s Day card we sent, which was nice.  I spent 5 bucks on the card, just because it had a butterfly on it.  I don’t know if she even noticed, but it just kind of symbolized our link to Grandma Ski for me.  It was a little hard not having to buy a card for her this year.  It’s probably crappy that I didn’t feel that way after my other grandma died, but that’s just how it is.

She also told me that my sister finally got the chromosome analysis back on my nephew Lucas.  Everything is normal, thank goodness.  He did have to go back to the doctor because he was all wheezy.  Turns out he has baby bronchitis and an ear infection.  Poor little guy.  He’s had such a rough go of it, right from the beginning.

I was able to vent to my mom about everything that is going on.  The hubby not being able to find a job, Sebastian’s problems at school, my apprehensions regarding my new job.  We talked for over a half hour, which was nice.  At least it was nice for me.  I’m not sure how much she enjoyed listening to me moan and groan, but it was good for me to get some things off my chest.  I have to be sorta careful what I say around the hubby becuase he’s feeling so crappy about not having a job and all.  If things doesn’t turn around soon, I don’t know what we’re going to do.  Today, I just feel like running away.

Well, I made it through my first week of work.  I actually have the weekend off, although I’ve been informed it will probably be the last weekend I have off in a while (more like, forever).  It went okay.  I ran register for my entire shift today.  I do have to say that I’m not real impressed with the training.  Yesterday, I’m pretty sure I should have just been standing behind a cashier and watching them run.  Didn’t happen.  I was out at the register in outside garden.  My "trainer" showed me the basic buttons and then I started ringing people up.  Suddenly, I look up and she’s gone.  Luckily, they did send another girl out, but basically, I was on my own.

Today, I was inside, and for about a half hour, I was right next to another cashier.  But then they started moving people around and I was by myself again.  There was another cashier about 25 feet away, and so I did have to run over to him a few times, but mostly, I just got through it myself.  Good thing I’m not a complete moron and have previous retail experience.

Also, I really don’t like how they have people hopping all over, using different registers.  It bothers me that there are a ton of people using the same till that I use.  I talked to the HR about it, and apparently it’s no big deal.  They have cameras and say they can see everything that is going on.  Whatever.  All’s I know is that if I ever get written up for a shortage or overage, whoever ran that same register better be written up with me, or I will be putting up an enormous stink.

The hubby still hasn’t heard anything since he was interviewed and it’s now been a week.  If he doesn’t hear anything by MOnday, I think he’s going to call.  It’s so frustrating.  I know he feel so dejected right now.  He’s applied to so many places, and just isn’t hearing anything back.  It’s pretty telling when one position for a manager at a WHole Foods store gets 1800 people applying.  There just isn’t enough work in Michigan.  If we only had money to move, we would so get the hell out of Dodge.

I had my first day of work today.  Orientation was from 10 am until about 2:30 pm.  It was boring as hell.  We filled out the requisite paperwork then watched some really boring videos.  Videos about power equipment like forklifts and motorized pallet jacks, machines which I will probably never use, but will be tested on and must pass the test with a 100%.  Bleh.  Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.  Maybe we’ll actually learn about something I’m actually going to need.

I think I should be alright there.  I’m not sure how much my previous experience at Toys R Us will help me.  I mean, I’m familiar with running a register and cash handling procedures, but I really know nothing about the product that is going to be coming through my line.  I’m a little worried that I’m going to be taken by a scammer.  The LP manager says it happens to a lot of people, but I’ll feel like a goober if it happens to me.

Also on the topic of work, the hubby hasn’t heard anything since his interview on Friday morning.  He’s not sure how it went.  He was supposed to interview with just the branch manager, but he ended up interviewing with two other people as well.  He said he had a hard time reading the branch manager, so he’s not sure if it went well or not.  He thinks it did, but some doubts crept in.  Then he interviewed with the two women who are directly underneath the branch manager.  He said one interview went really well, with the woman being totally gung-ho, but the other woman didn’t seem to like him at all.  So once again, we wait.

And on a slightly weird note, there is a slight chance we could move back to Kalamazoo.  The hubby applied for a HR job there and he was emailed back, asking him to take an employment questionaire.  We’ll see if anybody gets back to him on that one.  But wouldn’t it be kicker if we ended up back there.  Maybe Sebastian would do better in school.  And the cost of living is definitely much cheaper.  I’m not sure if my parents would forgive me if we moved back there.

I got a call from Sebastian’s teacher today.  It seems the behavioral problems have started up again.  He is acting silly and making weird noises when she is trying to teach.  She said he is very smart, but can be uncooperative at times.  One example is during their writer’s workshop.  He had 40 minutes and only did one sentence.  She said he just played around instead of writing.  I saw this first hand when I was at his class on Friday after the field trip.  He just refused to write.

She suggested starting up the daily notes again.  It seemed to help last time, but obviously, it was only a temporary solution.  He’s having problems in gym class and in the lunch room as well.  I just don’t know what to do.  It doesn’t seem to really bother him when we take things like tv or going to the park away from him.  I put in a call to his school counselor, asking if he could start meeting with Sebastian again.  Maybe that will help.

The other thing that really sucks is that next week is placement night at his school.  So as they are trying to figure out which teacher to put him with for second grade, all these behavioral issues are coming up again.  He’s not a bad kid, but he’s going to be labeled as a problem child.  He is so smart, but these issues with his self-control could really hold him back in school.  I just don’t know what to do to get through to him.  Looks like we are going to be having a big family talk later this afternoon.

It seems my time as a stay at home mom is over.  I got a call yesterday letting me know that I got the job at Lowe’s.  It’s evenings and weekends, anywhere from 20-35 hours a week.  I have orientation on Monday, then we’ll go from there.  The hubby is very happy for me, but I’m kinda sad.  I’m very used to being home all the time.  I worked for the first year after Seb was born, then after that, I basically just concentrated on school.  I worked two Christmases to bring in some extra money, but that’s it.  My poor little baby is barely going to see me until school is out for the summer in 6 weeks.  Yes, I realize I’m probably being overdramatic, but oh well.  This is going to be quite a change for all of us.  After seeing how difficult it was for Sebastian to adjust to the move and new school this past year, I’m afraid this might throw him totally off kilter again.

We still haven’t heard anything regarding the hubby’s interview.  They said they’d let him know either way, and it usually takes about a week, although sometimes it’s sooner. So far, it hasn’t been sooner.  Tomorrow will have been a week.  We’re still keeping our fingers crossed, but I can see that the hubby is losing hope the longer it takes for them to get back to him.  Again, we are just reallly hoping for some good news, and soon.