Out of My Mind

and nowhere near enought time to get it all done.  Last night, I thought I was going to have a minor panic attack!  Everyone else was in bed and I was sitting on the couch, watching tv and thought, "Why am I just sitting here?  I have so much shit to do and I am just sitting here!!"  Actually, I am pretty much all caught up for this week, but I have so much to do in the next few weeks before the semester ends and I am starting to freak out about it all.  Assignments, group projects, interviewing librarians, finding someone to watch Sebastian so I can actually go interview said librarians, karate, art class, family junk, grocery shopping, banking, laundry…

I’m just a tad overwhelmed right now.  Can you tell?  The stress is definitely getting to me.  I find myself eating more than I should, just to try and sooth myself.  And karate class two days a week isn’t going to be able to counteract the increased amount of junk I am putting into my body.  My two greatest weaknesses?  Hummous with garlic and herb pita chips and Weight Watchers giant fudge bars.  Not together, mind you, but still.  It seems like if I’m not munching on one, then I’m shoving the other down my throat.  I think I need help.  Or more booze.

My karate class, that is.  My arms are a little sore today from all the push ups we had to do. I had to cheat and do them the girly way on my knees because I couldn’t even do one regular push-up.  How sad is that?!

Sebastian was being a bit of a turd during class.  It seems he is starting to lose interest a bit and is getting sick of going over the basics again and again.  But once I told him how much I needed him to help me because I don’t know anything and put him into a teaching-type role, he had a lot of fun.  You could see it in the silly little grin every time he told me to "Switch!"

Seb and I are signed up through July.  I hope to god that it is easier for me by then.  I was sweating like a pig last night!  And do you know how hard it is to find a sports bra for a chesty girl like myself?  I’m going to have to shell out 40-50 bucks to get a good one that will give me the support I need.  Major suckage.

But, if I can keep it up, I will hopefully get stronger and thinner.  The sensei said I did good for my first day.  We go back on Friday.  For now, we’re going ot keep it to Mondays and Fridays.  Then once I get more comfortable, maybe we’ll pick up a few more days a week.

And let me just say, Sebastian looks much cuter in his little uniform than I do.