Out of My Mind

I’ve just spent the last hour on the phone.  Why?  Because not only is my financial aid messed up (again!!!) but the payment for our truck that i mailed out oh, nearly 3 weeks ago, never cleared.  So, yeah, I’m a tad frustrated right now.

I got a disclosure statement the other day for my student loans for the upcoming year.  It listed my subsidized loans, but had nothing for the unsubsidized that I had accepted.  And the subsidized is not enough to pay my tuition and fees, so I was a little worried.  Thankfully, when I called the direct loan dept., they had record of it and said it should be dispursed with my subsidized.  To be fair, there is a little blurb on my disclosure statement that says actual dates and amounts for dispursement may be different, but there was no way I was leaving that up to chance.  I’m still not 100% confident that it will all go smoothly, just because of the way WSU screwed everything up last semester with my financial aid, but as long as everybody has the same amounts, I’m hoping it will all be good.

And can’t forget the stupid truck.  I mailed out the payment on July 14th and my check still hasn’t cleared.  It’s only going to Grand Rapids, so they definitely should have gotten and cleared it by now.  WHen I called, the rep said they showed a payment of five hundred and some dollars posted for the july payment.  Well, that’s about 200 bucks more than my payment.  There was no record of the payment I sent in.  SHe said it’s possible that the payment got mixed up with somebody who’s account number is similar to ours since it’s all done by computer and that she’ll have the accounting department look into it and call me back later today.  I hope they can get it figured out, because I made the flippin payment!   Grrr.

Yesterday, I had to go to the laundrymat and do 3 baskets full of laundry.  When I was done, I stacked the baskets into one of the rolling carts to roll it out to the truck.  One of the cart wheels got stuck in a crack in the sidewalk in front of the laundrymat and the whole thing started to topple.  I tried to save it and managed to bang the crap out of my shins falling over top of it and the whole thing ended up on the ground.

I don’t know why, but I was really surprised that nobody offered to help me or see if I was okay.  I mean, people seriously just walked right by me and didn’t say a word.  I was shocked.  Had I seen something like that happen, I would have run over to see if I could help.  I was standing there nearly in tears because my damn shins hurt so bad, spilled laundry everywhere, and it was like I was invisible.  Jeez.  A little compassion for your fellow man would have been nice, people.

I will be having two root canals done.  Ugghh.  Other than having two of my wisdom teeth pulled two years ago because they were crumbling, I haven’t been to the dentist in over ten years.  Most of the time, I didn’t have dental insurance, and then when I did, I was too scared to go.  Well, now there is no avoiding it.  I have a couple teeth that have been bothering me for a while, but last night one really was hurting and now that whole side of my face aches.  I went in and saw a dentis today and he said he could save both teeth rather than just pulling them like I suggested.

I am so stupid for letting it go for so long.  The dentist said he could take care of it tomorrow, but Seb’s birthday is Sunday and I have so much shit to do to get ready for his party.  Plus, I already said I would pick him and two of his friends up from school and take them to the movies and dinner tomorrow after school. 

If I look for the silver lining, at least this means I can eat whatever I want this weekend.  Because I’m sure I’ll be on the soup diet for a good part of next week.

In my "Stupid Truck" post, I mentioned how I just dropped a bundle on fixing the damn truck.  I picked it up Thursday afternoon.  24 hours later, the engine malfunction light goes on again.  What the hell.  I was beyond pissed.  I called the service guy back and he says he can’t get it in until Monday morning.  Not sure what that was all about, since according the their website, the service department is open on Saturdays, but whatever.  I went in this morning, prepared to be a total bitch, figuring they were going to try and charge me a bunch more money.  Instead, they had me in and out within an hour, and I didn’t have to pay one penny.  Not that I was going to give them any money anyway, but still.  Turns out, with the computer update that we needed, Chrysler has two versions, and they sent the wrong one.  It was just a matter of clearing out the old update and reinstalling the new one.

I’m sure I sound like a total hag for actually complaining about not getting to be a bitch, but after dealing with that crabby-assed old man on Saturday and a bunch of family drama at my dad’s birthday party yesterday, I was ready to let out some frustrations.  Oh, well.  I guess I can just be mean to the hubby when he comes home.  J/K.  Sort of.

Another $450 down the drain.  The malfunction indicator light came on on Tuesday afternoon.  I took the truck in yesterday morning.  The O2 sensor was broken, which is covered by our warranty.  Unfortunately, they also needed to clean the fuel system (not covered) and there was some kind of update needed (also not covered).  It ended up costing $412.71.  Mother scratcher.  We just shelled out $185 two weeks ago because there was a weird vibration and $500 two weeks before that because we needed new tires.  $1100 on this stupid truck in about a month.  Grrrr.  It is so not worth it.  And we have 2 years left on the stinking lease and only about 17,000 miles left on our warranty.  I can only imagine what else is going to go wrong with it between now and then.

Mother scratcher.

Dearest Husband,

Yes, I realize I have pms.  In fact, I’m probably more cognizant of the fact than you are.  So let me inform you that the snippy little comments and patronizing attitude are not helping.  And lest you forget, this past month has been most stressful.  Your mother has been hospitalized and they threatened to amputate her leg above the knee.  My godfather is currently hospitalized.  They need to put in a feeding tube but cannot because he has yet another infection.  I have come down with a mother of a cold that is just wearing me right down.  While our child is doing so much better in school this year, he is having plenty of issues at latchkey.  And speaking of latchkey, my new job has been the cause of much stress.  It is also the reason why I am on my 30th straight day of working.  Yes, I only work about 5 hours a day compared to your 8.5.  But I never, ever have a day off.  One day a week, I get to "sleep in" until 6 am.  Otherwise, I am up between 4 and 5 each morning.  And though I know you think I am just laying on the couch doing nothing on my break between latchkey shifts, I am not.  I am running loads of laundry to the laundry mat, going grocery shopping, meetings and other priorities that I have for latchkey, getting things prepared for dinner, etc.  The weekends are no better.  There seems to always be something going on.

So forgive me if I seem a little tired and crabby.  And please think before you open your mouth next time.

Your loving wife

p.s.  If I have to hear you complain about not getting enough sex one more time, I will be sorely tempted to knock your teeth out.

Whether I like it or not!  The hubby’s brother left him a voice mail yesterday, and for sure, we are not going to be able to borrow their "extra" car for a few weeks.  Which means that I am going to have to walk home after the morning session of latchkey and then walk back again before the afternoon session starts.  The hubby is going to drop me and the bub off in the mornings and his friend has said he can pick us up in the evenings.  This just sucks so stinkin bad. 

But let’s try and look on the bright side.  I will be walking for nearly 7 miles, 5 days a week.  That’s got to have some impact and will help to get rid of the weight that has been sneaking back on, pound by pound.  So I’ll do it, I’m just not gonna like it.

I got a call from Sebastian’s teacher today.  It seems the behavioral problems have started up again.  He is acting silly and making weird noises when she is trying to teach.  She said he is very smart, but can be uncooperative at times.  One example is during their writer’s workshop.  He had 40 minutes and only did one sentence.  She said he just played around instead of writing.  I saw this first hand when I was at his class on Friday after the field trip.  He just refused to write.

She suggested starting up the daily notes again.  It seemed to help last time, but obviously, it was only a temporary solution.  He’s having problems in gym class and in the lunch room as well.  I just don’t know what to do.  It doesn’t seem to really bother him when we take things like tv or going to the park away from him.  I put in a call to his school counselor, asking if he could start meeting with Sebastian again.  Maybe that will help.

The other thing that really sucks is that next week is placement night at his school.  So as they are trying to figure out which teacher to put him with for second grade, all these behavioral issues are coming up again.  He’s not a bad kid, but he’s going to be labeled as a problem child.  He is so smart, but these issues with his self-control could really hold him back in school.  I just don’t know what to do to get through to him.  Looks like we are going to be having a big family talk later this afternoon.