Out of My Mind

At least once a day, I think, damn, I should update my blog.  Then I get sucked into the homework vortex or the cat starts attacking Sebastian or the hummous in the fridge starts calling my name.  But I’m still here, somewhat sane and still kicking.  So let’s get to some updatery:

School:

I have less than a month left of this semester.  My group project is pretty much finished after much hassle, thank goodness.  I still have a buttload of stuff to do in the next few weeks, but it should be manageable.  I managed to get another class for the fall, an online one for that matter, so I will be taking 3 classes.  Should be interesting.  I’d like to see about getting some part time work in a local library once Seb is back in school in the fall, but I don’t know if I can manage it with the courseload I’ll have and the hubby’s schedule and Seb.  We’ll see.  But I need to get some experience, even if it’s just shelving books and checking out books.  I really want to get a foot in the door somewhere.

Sebastian:

He was promoted to the third grade.  Woohoo!  I wasn’t tooooo worried, because bookwise, he’s such a little smartypants, but with all the behavior issues, eh, I was a tad worried.  I’ve been talking to him a lot this summer about how he’s 8 years old now and going into the third grade.  His teacher is not going to tolerate the silliness and weirdness, so he needs to act like a big third grader.  I think having him in karate through the summer will help.  When his behavior starts to slip while we are there, I talk with him and try and get him back on track.  Big News!!!  Seb can now ride a two-wheeler!  He pretty much picked it up in one weekend.  We went two weekends ago and he was kinda getting it, but then he had a big wipeout and was done.  We went the following Saturday and he just got it!  So on Sunday, we went for a family bikeride of about 3 and half miles.  He still has some troubles starting off, especially if it’s uphill, but for the most part he’s got it.  I’m really proud of him.  Now he’s talking about getting a new bike.  Big surprise there!

Mother-in-law:

She’s currently doing rehab after having her leg amputated below the knee.  We went and saw her over father’s day weekend, and she looked okay then.  I talked with my SIL the other day and they said they had removed a few stitches, but had to put her on antibiotics because there was some infection.  Not too big of a surprise with her diabetes.  There has been some talk of her coming home soon, but since they are still using the lift to get her in and out of bed and she’s not really allowed to do too much on her own, I don’t see how that’s going to happen.  And there’s no way my FIL can take care of her properly.  I hate to say it, but I have a feeling it’s going to be like Grandma Ski.  Once she’s there, she’s there to stay.  But I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

Weightloss:

I’ve actually gained back two stupid pounds. I recognize that I’m eating like crap, but can’t seem to stop myself.  We are going to start picking up some extra days of karate now that we pretty much have the basics down.  Not sure when we’ll get to test for our yellow belt.  Hopefully by the end of summer.  I’m tired of being a white belt!  Plus, now that Seb can ride a bike without training wheels, we can go for bikerides together, too.  I have a wedding to go to in just over three weeks and I’d like to lose 10 pounds by then, since I need to buy a new dress.  Don’t know if it’ll be possible.  I’m going to have to be a lot stricter with my diet.  It probably doesn’t help that we are leaving tomorrow to go to Gary and Sharon’s for the fourth of July weekend and I know I’ll eat too much while there.  Control, Erin.  Got to have control.

I suppose that it for right now.  I really am going to try and be better about posting…

and nowhere near enought time to get it all done.  Last night, I thought I was going to have a minor panic attack!  Everyone else was in bed and I was sitting on the couch, watching tv and thought, "Why am I just sitting here?  I have so much shit to do and I am just sitting here!!"  Actually, I am pretty much all caught up for this week, but I have so much to do in the next few weeks before the semester ends and I am starting to freak out about it all.  Assignments, group projects, interviewing librarians, finding someone to watch Sebastian so I can actually go interview said librarians, karate, art class, family junk, grocery shopping, banking, laundry…

I’m just a tad overwhelmed right now.  Can you tell?  The stress is definitely getting to me.  I find myself eating more than I should, just to try and sooth myself.  And karate class two days a week isn’t going to be able to counteract the increased amount of junk I am putting into my body.  My two greatest weaknesses?  Hummous with garlic and herb pita chips and Weight Watchers giant fudge bars.  Not together, mind you, but still.  It seems like if I’m not munching on one, then I’m shoving the other down my throat.  I think I need help.  Or more booze.

My karate class, that is.  My arms are a little sore today from all the push ups we had to do. I had to cheat and do them the girly way on my knees because I couldn’t even do one regular push-up.  How sad is that?!

Sebastian was being a bit of a turd during class.  It seems he is starting to lose interest a bit and is getting sick of going over the basics again and again.  But once I told him how much I needed him to help me because I don’t know anything and put him into a teaching-type role, he had a lot of fun.  You could see it in the silly little grin every time he told me to "Switch!"

Seb and I are signed up through July.  I hope to god that it is easier for me by then.  I was sweating like a pig last night!  And do you know how hard it is to find a sports bra for a chesty girl like myself?  I’m going to have to shell out 40-50 bucks to get a good one that will give me the support I need.  Major suckage.

But, if I can keep it up, I will hopefully get stronger and thinner.  The sensei said I did good for my first day.  We go back on Friday.  For now, we’re going ot keep it to Mondays and Fridays.  Then once I get more comfortable, maybe we’ll pick up a few more days a week.

And let me just say, Sebastian looks much cuter in his little uniform than I do.

Yesterday, I signed up to be a member at Seb’s karate academy.  Now we can take the family class together.  I got my uniform,but have to take it back for a bigger size.  The top is tight, but workable on my belly, but the amount of boobage that peeks out just wouldn’t be appropriate, especially since there will be kids in the class.  The men might like it, but too bad for them.

First class is Monday evening.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

I haven’t been around much, but I’m still alive.  The last few weeks have just been incredible hectic.  I feel like I’m either doing homework or driving somewhere.  Seriously.  That’s about all I’ve done for the last two weeks.  So  a little update is in order

School, the thing that takes up most of my time.  Last week was a bitch.  I had a paper (it turned out to be 8 flippin pages! single spaced!) and a group project due for my intro to the profession class and another project for my tech class.  WHile I’m glad my group project is now done and out of the way, it was a pain in the ass.  One of our group members had to drop the class for medical reasons, so the three remaining members had to take over her area of the project.  But it’s done and over with and I won’t have to worry about it later in the semester when I’m trying to study for midterms or anything, so that’s good.  And, I had my period, on top of all that.  I honestly thought the hubby was going to pack up and leave I was being such a crazy bitch.  Sorry, honey.  Love you bunches.

The hubby’s mom is supposed to have her leg amputated today.  She was supposed to have it done last week, but there were problems with her blood, so that had to wait.  I saw her on Sunday and she looks terrible.  I hope she makes it through the surgery.  My FIL is being an idiot about the entire thing, but that’s nothing new.

Most of all, I’m just tired.  The stupid cat drives me crazy in the middle of the night.  I thought I was done with this up two, three times a night thing.  I have decided that the cat has until the end of the summer to shape up or he’s gone.  I’m so tired of the biting and the stalking and having him pounce on my head in the middle of the night because he thinks I should be up since he is.  And he just torments Bubba.  He’ll trap him in the hallway and then jump up on him and bite him when he tries to go past.  I know he’s just a kitten, but my other kitty was never like this.  Honestly, the only reason he’s still here is because we’ve already sunk so much money into the damn thing.

I know there is more, but I’m just so damn tired.  I’ll try and update more later.

Oh, I’m down 14 pounds now.  Woohoo!

I walked 16.5 miles this week!  And if weather permits, I’ll probably walk another 4 tomorrow!  I’m finally starting to see some results.  My pants are looser and I’m losing that yucky old muffin top!  Yay for decreasing muffin tops!

I was talking with the hubby last night and told him how I can see why people get addicted to exercising.  Granted, I’m nowhere near being a workout freak, but finally seeing some results is a big motivator.  And I just feel better after I do it.  Yes, I am pretty much hating it the entire time I’m walking, just waiting to be done.  But by the time I get home and take a shower, I really feel good.  The days I don’t do anything, I just feel so blah. 

So I’m going to kick things up a notch.  Instead of walking 3 days a week, now I am aiming for 4-5 times a week.  Who would have thought this lazy bum would actually enjoy walking 16-20 miles a week.  And eating healthy, too.   I do miss my potato chips, though.

I’m down another 4 pounds, for a total of 10 pounds lost so far!  Woohoo!  Only 55 more to go!  I knew the odds of doing fairly well this week were pretty good since I totally stunk it up the week before.  Today was one of my cheat days, though.  Seb had a half day of school, so we had a "Mommy-Bubba date."  We went to the Olive Garden for lunch.  I had the soup-salad-breadsticks meal.  I really wanted the grilled shrimp and cheese stuffed rigatoni, but I was able to hold myself back.  Then we went to the movies and Seb and I shared some popcorn.  Definitely going to have to do the 4 mile trip around the lake tomorrow.  Except that it’s supposed to be, oh, about 30 degrees for a low tonight.  Oh, well.  I’ll just have to tough it out.  I didn’t walk today, so I have to tomorrow.  Hopefully, I don’t get pooped on like I did yesterday.  That was really gross.  I was walking under a tree and felt something hit my arm.  I looked down and there was a quarter-sized blob of bird poop on my arm.  The good news:  I was wearing a jacket.  The bad news:  I had just washed that jacket.  I guess it could have been worse.  It could have landed on my hair.

Dietwise, that is.  This week I was down another 2 pounds on Wednesday morning, now, I’m actually up half a pound from where I started at the beginning of the week.  I did manage to walk 8 miles during the week, but that’s about the only good thing.  On Wednesday, I had my root canal done, and decided that I needed some Cold Stone Creamery cake batter ice cream after Seb got out of karate.  That was about 650 calories right there.  This week, I also had chinese for lunch one day, pizza for dinner of friday and Burger King last night.  Ugh. Next week will be better.  I promise!

I’m down another 3 pounds, for a total of 6 so far!  I figure if I can keep up this 3 pound a week thing, I’ll be below 200 lbs by the end of May.  That would be wonderful.  I haven’t been below 200 since I was about 4 and a half months pregnant with Sebastian.  I know the lower I go, the harder it is going to be to take the weight off, but I am so determined to get the results I want this time.  I’m already thinking about how nice it’ll be to be able to shop in the "normal" ladies section again.  No more "women’s" for me!

Yesterday was Gasp! Today is Ow!  Today, I walked probably close to 4 miles by the lake.  My shins and booty are killing me.  I’m sure all kinds of other parts are going to be hurting by the time I wake up tomorrow.  I am really proud of myself though.  I’m going to try and do it again tomorrow, too.  I figure if I do that 2-3 times a week and walk the apartment complex 2-3 times a week, I should be in good shape as long as I stick to my diet.  Eventually, I’m going to get the old exercise ball out again, but I know I’m not quite ready for that workout yet.  Soon, though.

I did find a half full bag of reese’s peanut butter cups that I had hidden away from Easter, today.  Why couldn’t I have found them earlier?  I could have eaten them all in one day and not felt any guilt.  Not now.  I did have one, because I figured that one wasn’t going to kill me.  And it was delicious.